Tuesday, July 19, 2005
I’ve been pretty frustrated lately, and a lot of people I know don’t know why, so I’m posting an email to a friend that sort of describes what’s on my mind.:
It was hard seeing me ex, we got together on saturday morning and had and exceptionally good time, I told her I would really like to see her again before I left and she said we “might” be able to get together that night or something. So I called.. and called. Then I called the next day, maybe four times. I’m not trying to be a creepy over caller, but I just wanted to find out if we had plans or if I should hang with my friends, and also let her know what number to reach me at (cause my cell didn’t work). Now it is possible she had her phone off, or was busy, BUT she knew I was in town for a very limited time and I guess I was just extremely hurt by the fact that I thought she was anxious to see me again.
I was even possibly looking into moving back and shit. Shit.
In the past I would just bottle the hurt/anger up, which I did on the plane ride, but then I sent her an email about how I felt and asking if she had a good reason to not call. The email was actually a reply to an email she sent me that said it was nice seeing each other and she was sorry she didn’t call. So… I guess she already apologized before I sent her the email, but that didn’t stop the hurt I felt. I mean, and I know this is stupid, but I listened to every intercom message at the airport in case she tried calling me there. I’m in a bad bad way.